November 08, 2012

Pondering Independence

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I'm back from my self-imposed semi-hiatus, which means it's time to blog.  It's Thursday, which means it's time for Pondering with a Purpose.  I don't know if Brenda and the gang missed me, but I've missed them.  Pondering is one of my favorite weekly memes.

To refresh your memory (and mine), the way this works is that Brenda gives  us a prompt and we (the bloggers) expound on it in any way we want to....photos, poetry, whatever.  Then we grab the link badge (that pretty blue box over there on the left) and leave the link to our post over on Brenda's site.  Pretty simple.  If you want to read the other posts or have the urge to join in simply click on the button or the links above.  Brenda has all the rules spelled out for you on her site.  Now, on with the pondering!

This week's prompt: Independence
Are you independent or do you lean on other people for your basic needs?

For the most part, I'd have to say I'm independent.  I was certainly raised to be.  There was no coddling in our household growing up.  There were chores to do and homework to be done and there certainly wasn't anyone who was going to do them for me.  I was given an alarm clock at age 8 and I've gotten myself up in the mornings ever since.  At about the same time I started putting myself to bed without hugs and tuck-ins.  I was an only child in often isolated areas so I learned to amuse myself.  Unlike so many kids today, my parents were not there to keep me entertained.  I developed an imagination and sense of adventure.  I did and still do things that tend to surprise people.  I'm not afraid to strike out on my own or try something new.  I hope I never lose that.

But then there is another side of me.  I am a Christian and as such I am supposed to be dependent on God for all my needs.  I struggle with that sometimes, with the asking him what his will is.  I tend to want to charge right out there and "git 'r done!"  I also struggle with God being all I need to be satisfied.  I guess that might be the "bad" side of the above coin.  All that hands-off parenting has left me a bit insecure on some level.  I want everyone to like me.  I will do just about anything to avoid conflict.  The idea of someone finding me to be lacking makes me feel sick.  I guess I'm still seeking the love I didn't get and sometimes I expect a lot more from people than they can give and it causes problems.  I'm working on allowing God's love and acceptance to be enough.

9 comments:

retired not tired said...

It is amazing how our childhood shapes us as adults. I am the oldest of 4 children and took charge

Judy said...

What a great honest post!

My Kid's Mom said...

Great post. I think kids these days could use a little more independence and a lot more imagination.

HeY J said...

I agree with Tami imaginations were what made a childhood fun no internet or video games just made-up fun and I totally get the lonely feeling from lack of parents involvement but Stacy I think you are SUPER and allows available for a ((HUG)) and a vent.
I just changed my blog so this Janice is now at lovingtheday22.blogspot.com no more footsteps for me :( but same friendly janice please come follow me there now!!

Brenda Youngerman said...

Welcome back! I have certainly missed your ponderings... and on that note your post reminded me that I was responsible for making my own school lunches from a very young age... no mom awake in the morning to make sure we got to school...no one there to tuck us in at night... I guess I have always been independent... hmmmmmm wonder what it would be like to lean on someone else?

Thanks for pondering with me!

Wayne W Smith said...

A very nice post.

Jan said...

You raise a very important point here.... our dependence on God... still I think he wants us to be confident and able to manage... afer all we are made in his likeness and in Him we live and move and have our being. Being a Christian has given me a lot more confidence as don't have to worry what other people think, I know I am doing the right thing and it is between me and the Lord.
Blessings

Anonymous said...

thanks for sharing..

Kathy ... aka Nana said...

Oh my, I could have written this post. Ok, maybe not since I'm not nearly as eloquent as you are!

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