April 16, 2011

When Love Fades

Song Challenge, Day 16: a song you used to love, but now you hate.

Hate might be too strong a word, but the song I'm sharing today used to make my heart soar and now I feel nothing but heartache when I hear it.

To be the mother of a rebellious, newly minted adult (legally, anyway) daughter who is in the process of shedding everything you have ever taught her and all that you have hoped for her, is......a very tough role to find yourself in.

One day you are her mommy, her confidant, her role model, her secret-keeper, and the fixer of all her problems.  Then comes the day when she can't even look at you without rolling her eyes with disdain.  She tells you NOTHING and rejects your thoughts, advice, and even your love.

She tests limits, crosses lines, ignores rules (she is a legal adult, you know...you can't make her do what you say) and boldly flaunts bad choices you know will lead to nothing but heartbreak or worse for her.

Everyone assures you that it is a phase, that will pass in time....and all you can do is get on your knees and pray that it does before she makes a choice that will irrevocably change the course of her life or cause her harm.

And love her.  You always love her even as your heart hangs in shreds.

day 17 – a song that you hear often on the radio
day 18 – a song that you wish you heard on the radio
day 19 – a song from your favorite album
day 20 – a song that you listen to when you’re angry
day 21 – a song that you listen to when you’re happy
day 22 – a song that you listen to when you’re sad
day 23 – a song that you want to play at your wedding
day 24 – a song that you want to play at your funeral
day 25 – a song that makes you laugh
day 26 – a song that you can play on an instrument
day 27 – a song that you wish you could play
day 28 – a song that makes you feel guilty
day 29 – a song from your childhood
day 30 – your favorite song at this time last year


Ellen Stewart (aka Ellie/El/e/Mrs. Seaman) said...

This post was painful to read. Praying for you friend.

quilly said...

I offered up a prayer.

Stacy Lynn said...

Thank you both. It's tough, but I'm not as depressed as this post sounds. I do appreciate the prayers, though. I hope she turns around before she finds real trouble.


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